Happy Easter everyone!

My day started incredibly well with my housemate’s mom playing Easter Bunny and dropping a chocolate egg for me as well!

I’m not in my country. I don’t have many friends here. That to me was a beautiful sweet gesture. I am incredibly grateful for it.

I don’t know how I feel. There are good days and bad days. The day after his message and phone call I couldn’t physically move from my bed. I was in a proper state. I cried so much that I could barely keep my eyes open. Then I accepted the fact that he will come back.

I told him I was leaving him his space. I decided with myself I would have not made any contact until Tuesday.

On Friday he sent me a game. I didn’t reply. Yesterday I received a movie. No answer. I can afford to buy my own movie. He said a lot that I’m not his responsability. So what’s the point on sending a movie? On trying to have a contact?

He pretty much told me I was a stalker that he doesn’t want to talk to. That I’ve been the only one making efforts for this relationship to keep going. That he doesn’t miss me or think of me. He abandoned me while the world is falling apart knowing that he was the only normality I needed to keep going.

He’ll come back and I’ll have my list of rules. He’ll come back because he always does and because I want him to. And the Universe is on my side.

B.