Like in every other affair, we also have our up and downs. The up usually last 2 weeks so guess what happened today?

Yes, he made me feel like shit.

“My life was fine before. You weren’t the solution to my happiness.”

Why do I let someone treat me like that? Why do I keep fight to make this work? Why do I care so much about how does he feel? Why do I just want to be there and support him no matter what?

If any of you has the answer please feel free to write it in the comments. One of my friend always tells me “Because you are a fucking idiot.”

I have all this pictures in my head of his happy family. Him cooking. Sitting on the couch watching a movie. Waking up together. Playing with the kids outside. I want that normality. I want him to be my normality.

How can you start something on a lie? People change. I believe that if his relationship with his wife was sexually healthy there would have not been a door opened for me. Sex is important. No matter what. A relationship with no sex is brotherhood. Yes, sure plenty of love but that’s not enough..

I miss him so much. I just want him to hug me and tell me it all will be alright.

B.